Dear booboo girl...

You're going to be a year old in about 48-hours. Holding you as you fell asleep tonight, it really started to sink in. You aren't a tiny baby anymore, you're a toddler already. You've been walking for a month now and you're so eager and independent when we go places now. You may not like shoes much at this point, but I promise that will change.

Even without much hair, you are a beauty. When you smile it is so contagious, especially when you scrunch up your nose. So cute. You make us all laugh every day with your aggressive love of food and the way you jump/dive on us and your brother.

You and your manong Kole are so close, and I always pray it would stay that way the rest of your lives. No one will be your friend for longer than your sibling. He may be rough with you sometimes, but he also already knows how to protect you. It's a beautiful thing to see the love you two have for each other already.

My prayers for you, Alexandria, are that you would learn from your mistakes as well as others. That you would be a strong woman with a soft heart. Know your worth and expect others to treat you as such. My prayers for you will be endless as my love. We won't always be friends, but I'll always do what I feel is best for you. After only one year of having you in my life, you have changed me for the better. Thanks mamacita.

Love,

Momma

Just wow

Posted January 22, 2014

(Posted to my other blog by accident)

Just wow

1. Long story short: we moved. (Details later...if I can find my way out of all our crap!)

2. My precious boy has a place to play outside. I could literally cry tears of joy. Just seeing his smiling face when he runs back-and-forth right outside our front door is an amazing feeling.

3. I have a priceless friend, named Nicholei. She is an angel. Not only because she packed and moved and cleaned all our crap, but she really knows how to be a true friend through and through.

He works in mysterious ways

7/21/13:

Feeling a new excitement for the arrival if my baby girl.

I believe God has been waiting for me to change my heart. I believe I need to receive and give forgiveness for sins in my life and childhood, so I can be a better mother.

7/23/13:

She was born.

Can't win

Ne-

Was gonna blog about how I can't win, I can't get a break. Then my kids woke up and mom is back to work again.

Blogging?

Ain't nobody got time for that!

SB no.1 - No Worries

I don't wanna deny people certain rights, but I don't want my rights to disagree denied either.

What may be the final voting on this movement is happening right now as I write. I have grasped a peace about it. Even if it does pass, which it probably will, being out of the voters' hands, we are gonna be okay. 

While American laws and values used to reflect Biblical law, more and more this is just no longer the case. This is our opportunity as Bible-believing Christians to practice what we preach, by living our lives not by worldly standards but by God's standards. Living by faith. Although it seems in vain that so many testified these last few days, the Bible reminds us that standing on God's Truth is never in vain. We do what we think Jesus would do and we trust the outcome is part of His plan, whatever it may be. My prayer is that the righteousness of His people will preserve Hawai'i, and even this country.

I don't doubt that one day every state will recognize same-sex marriage. It is the will of this worldly world. I say praise God that their definitions and laws don't change a letter of God's Truth. It may affect our jobs. It may affect our friendships. It may affect our schools. We'll have to make adjustments for sure. But it will not change our faith, unless we allow it to. Our hope is in Jesus, not people. 

Feeling Heavy

Today was eventful to say the least. A murder-suicide hits too close to home. Then our state's senate began a special session which infringes on the rights of many while granting "equal" rights to the LGBT community (SB1). I guess I'm not feeling safe on a number of levels tonight as I try to fall asleep. I've always known I'd be bearing and raising children in a world that's far from Pleasantville. There's a false sense of safety we adopt as we turn blind eyes from the evil around us. As we avoid the "bad" neighborhoods and lock our doors at night. 

Even as we attempt to censor what hits our children's senses, we cannot make sense of the stench of this world's insensitivity to our ideals.

And they don't want our 2-cents. We weren't offered a ballot, but a minute on a microphone. A mic that was passionately pleaded into to no avail. Truly our state will suffer as their haste subscribes us all to culture of reverse discrimination. I didn't sign up for this. Native Hawaiians didn't sign up for this. The church didn't sign up for this. 

This special session is wrong on so many levels. I can only continue to pray and trust that God is in control. This presents such a unique opportunity to grow in love and find new ways to demonstrate WWJD. Get ready for growing pains!

As for the gun shots only 3 floors away from me...it breaks my heart. It breaks my heart that someone needed help but couldn't see a way out aside from a pistol. My heart breaks for the family that lost a daughter/sister/niece/friend. And a  man without the will to live is being healed at the hospital so he can be sent to jail. I hope he meets Jesus in his time left on Earth. It breaks my heart to relive the fear as those shots rang out, and my son startled from sleep screaming for a hug. It breaks my heart that my false sense of safety between concrete walls has been uncloaked, and my Pleasantville defaced.

Thankfully I don't live in a place where guns are heard frequently. And I am still thankful for those concrete walls. Thankfully I listened to Joyce Meyer talk about being a prisoner of Hope this morning; God knew I'd need it. Thankfully I can be thankful through all of this. And I have Jesus to thank for that.

He > i

Dear Baby Girl...

Wow, you're almost 2 months old! Time doesn't stop flying by, especially with having two of you kids now. You and your brother are so sweet together. You already watch him running around, and we can tell you like it when he kisses you (even if it's hard). 

You are more precious to me each day I spend with you. There are times you give me the biggest smile and it makes my day. I can't wait to hear you laugh! 

Everyone notices how strong you are and how much neck control you have already. Go girl! You may be getting a tooth already, but we're not quite sure. Early just like me and your brother. Sorry, lol. You're eyes are still blue and you are pretty much bald. You're hair is coming in (along with longer eyelashes) but I think we'll be waiting a little longer for those eyes to change. 

Your daddy and I have had a hard time deciding who you look like but we're being told more and more that you look like daddy, especially when he was a baby. You're much lighter of course, but that's from grandma's side. Can't wait to see how your beauty will blossom as you grow.

Love you mucho!

Yo Mama

P.S. Thanks for sleeping 5-7 hours straight most nights! :) Mama like.