Prego blues

Feeling super whack. Pretty much just low. Week 35 has been the longest yet I think. I'm just getting more and more tired, which leaves me less than productive, which makes me stressed, which makes me more stressed cuz there's nothing I can really do about it. Sometimes coffee helps, sometimes not. I don't wanna drink a lot anyway. 

I wanna listen to my body and simply rest, but I have things I'd like to get done, and I have a 2-year old. He's a good boy but he has more energy than I can entertain these days. I feel bad I can't take him out like I used to, or even play as much or the way we used to. It's frustrating for him too, but probably more for me. 

I would really love a couple days to zone out, guilt free. Sleep whenever I feel the need, no cleaning or cooking, etc. I don't see that happening but it sounds nice. Even if life allowed it, I probably couldn't keep from feeling guilty about doing nothing. Boo.

36 weeks tomorrow. As lame as I feel I do pray she stays in at least another week, and comes out when she'll be most healthy.

35 weeks already!

Well even though my due date is a little over a month away, I'll be considered full term in less than 2 weeks. That is a trip. I have a sense of urgency like she could come any day from this point on. Never know, but I do hope we make it to 37 weeks for her sake (weight gain, development, etc). I have enough done that she could come and I might not freak out. Haha, might not.

My second pregnancy has been so different than the first. I'm blessed to have had few complications again, but I just feel more uncomfortable and I'm bigger. I know this cuz I've outgrown most the things I wore last time! I think I weigh about the same though, just more stretched out I guess. Having a 2-year old has made this harder too. I am beyond blessed that he's such a good kid. I can't imagine how it would be with a true rascal. Seeing him interact with my tummy, and get excited when she moves, and how he likes to look at her sonogram pictures warms my heart so deep. I believe he's gonna be such a great big brother! He already shows concern for her. One time when we went to see fireworks at Magic Island, once they started he looked back and said "Oh, baby" as if to check on her. Too sweet. Back in 2nd trimester I tried to wear my belly support (which I always forget now) but he would say "No! Baby!" all pull on it. I just love this kid. She will be one lucky lil lady.

She isn't short of extended family either. Our church ohana just threw us a shower and I didn't expect it. They definitely showed us the love, and I needed it. Been feeling a bit lonely, missing my friends on the mainland, and just having a friend to hang out with for no reason. But anyways, that's another story for another time. Thankful for the gifts and love from our people here for sure. 

Okay, time to rest my mushy brain til the boy wakes up.

How a fart stopped a fire

Really, it's true! It went like this...

I started the rice cooker a few minutes before my son and I went to take our nap. I knew we would be asleep when hubby woke up to go to work and might want some rice to go with whatever he eats. I do this all the time. I will never do it again.

This afternoon the boy was a little more resistant for his nap. He was rolling around, talking, and trying to play. At one point he said, "Big doo doo." I asked if he needed/wanted to use the potty, but no. I told him just sleep then. I was trying to sleep until I got a whif of something. Geez! The last thing I wanna do is clean up some poo; I'm ready to sleep. Why did you have to go now? 

I got up to get wipes since there were none in the room and immediately I could smell something burning. My first thought was, what are the neighbors cooking (or burning)? But it was so strong I got more curious and concerned, and went to investigate the kitchen. Did I leave something on? I hadn't even cooked since breakfast. Then I noticed the rice cooker was still switched to "cook" but it had been going for almost an hour by then and should be been on "warm." I gave the switch a little tap and it went to "warm." Too late buddy! The rice touching the pot was burning. I added some water to cool it faster but I have yet to see the mess it's created inside. This has never happened! I'm guessing we need a new rice cooker because it's not worth the risk.

When I went back to change that diaper, there was no poo! He must have just carte. But his fart averted a potential disaster! Hooray for timely flatulence!