I have one amazing boy

We got his lil froggy potty and his potty seat (for the big potty) only a few weeks ago and he is doing better than I had already expected! He is impressing me for real. We have been doing part time elimination communication by giving him a little naked time every day (or at least no bottoms). He has been using his potty so well, going to it when he has to go. Of course we've had our accidents along the way, but more successes than set backs. Thank goodness for our tile floors! He's such a smart boy and I'm so thankful for his cooperation, and I'm just so proud of him.

All this is on the tail end of officially weaning him from nursing too. We went almost two years, but all good things must come to an end. I will definitely miss those times. Now look at this new journey we already started. Always bittersweet to see him growing up, but I never want to be too selfish and hold him back. I can feel that drag on my heart sometimes, but my deepest drive is to help him grow up and be there however he needs me.

I love this kid so much. He is one amazing boy.

Little Miss Perfect

Bright smile at day's first light.
Patience increases with baby's each cry.
Breakfast comes like ocean tide; a lovely sight and right on time.
No frustration uttered from her mouth.
Life is simple when Perfect is around.

The dishes are washed before she eats.
Lunch she promises will be a feast.
Never would she forget to play.
Never would she rest in the middle of the day.
Naturally she sparkles like her house.
Life is magic when Perfect is around.

Ready for more after the babe naps.
Not a hair out of place when he wrestles in her lap.
And dinner will of course be done shortly.
She has only to serve her precious family.
Never makes a fuss or sound.
Life is pleasant when Perfect is around.

And again the kitchen is spotless.
Not to mention the bathtub and toilet.
The floor is clear.
The laundry disappears.
She wouldn't dream of letting dust abound.
Life is just wonderful when Perfect is around.

Never would you need to throw her a dime.
She has no wants or things in mind.
Never for your help would she pine;
She knows you already work full time.
Nothing undone in the wake of her path.
Life is perfect when Perfect is around.

Busy busy busy

We're all so busy ALL THE TIME. Sometimes I think I fight being busy. I avoid commitments so I don't overload my schedule (or myself). I have learned lessons on boundaries and that is one of my personal boundaries I am pretty aware of. I'm not saying I'm always right to shy away from commitments, but I am glad that I no longer jam pack my life with so many activities that I am never home or forget what's really important. it's easy to lose sight of important things that are right in your face when you're always looking towards what's next on the to-do list. More of us should include quiet or down time on our to-do list. I know I do.

What the funk?

I've been in such a funk lately. I feel like I'm pms-ing but it's weeks too early. Just feeling low but with emotional volatility....kinda like a bipolar person I guess. (No, I don't think I'm bipolar.) Anyways, just all this has me clinging to God and the Word because I would be a terrible mother and wife without that support.

Doing lots of reflecting tonight and here is a rant that went on in my head as I ate my midnight snack...


So many people want advice from someone who has "been there" or is in the same situation they are in. Maybe it's a good idea to hear from people who were able to make choices to avoid your situation. Hmmm, maybe! Just because I'm not in your current situation doesn't mean that I didn't walk that line or even make most of the same choices. If 3 people step on the same crack, and 2 of them trip but only one of them doesn't trip, wouldn't you wanna get advice from the one who didn't trip rather than the one who tripped just like you? Not that people in your same situation can't offer valuable encouragement and personal experience - they can - but you can't live as if you're the only ones who understand. It's such as excuse to be angry or isolate yourself.

Says I.

BGC9 ep 1 & 2

Why the heck do those girls say Christina is fake? Cuz she didn't come in the house swinging? I'd be like her, I'm nice up front but once you hit that switch it is definitely on. That's not fake, that's being a level person until the right time. She's from Jersey City; how could you think she didn't have some hood in her?

I can't stand Julie or Char Jr (whatever...Obama chic). Char Jr fake inside and out then Julie just complains - she's that chic that talks and talks.

Blondie is koo and Falen is super funny. Falen is in the wrong crew though but I guess you gotta pick a side.

Rima...why you there when you got a son?? That would break my heart to leave my son for 3 months. How can you be dancing on bars with your booty out and fighting so much when you got that boy looking up to you? I dunno girl. No shame if you leave early for him.

Erika: love her so far. She fuels the fires but she does keep it real - and I'd believe she could take anyone in the house haha!


I wonder who will end up in Mexican jail? Lol 😜

Uneventful Independence Day

Hubby works so no celebrations for us. I don't really care to do much unless we went to hang with friends; large crowds of people i don't know is not fun to me. Call me grumpy/party-pooper/square but I don't like car or foot traffic (like being bumped into or fighting to get a place to sit). *shudder*

I took Kole out for a rare evening outing to catch some of the Ala moana show from Waikiki beach. After trying to keep him busy and out of the street for 40-minutes, the show started. The Sheraton blocks most of it but we could see the big bursts. Unfortunately Kole was not entertained. He kept shaking his head "no" and pointing in the opposite direction of the fireworks. Haha! I was like OK I guess we won't be staying. I wasn't bummed to leave cuz I only came for him to see. It was kinda late to be out anyway.

This is a lame post for a fairly lame day. Woke up sicker today than yesterday, and still dragged my butt to the grocery store. I think I'll be feeling better by tomorrow, just in time for a date with my man.

I planned a date for us since it's been so long (again). And I'm very proud of myself for doing so because it's the last thing I felt like doing BUT now I'm excited and in the spirit just in time for our anniversary coming up too. Been praying for a change of heart and God works quickly when we open up to let Him.

Weaning

Well Kole is down to nursing only about 4 times per day now. It's a good thing cuz he seems to accept when I offer food rather than "mum-mums." i definitely don't offer anymore unless it's all we have while we're out. Today he didn't nurse from about 9am until 10pm. Luckily my body has adjusted to less feedings so I'm just going with the flow.

A part of me really didn't wanna quit breastfeeding. It's such a special time with him. Then another part of me is ready, I guess...kinda. I want him to be getting the most/best calories that he can and if that's not from me, then I am happy to feed him something else. I've rarely felt burdened by breastfeeding on demand. It's been a great thing for us and I hope I'm this successful with future children.

It's weaning for both of us; a new chapter in our relationship as he transitions to more of a separate person from Mama. Only the first of many things I'll have to let go of in his life as he grows up. *sigh*